Life threw me a curve ball! That curve ball produced major changes in my life including, but not limited to, an address change, the ending of a sacred relationship, a career shift, and the need to rebuild my life as a whole. There is nothing quite like realizing that the person you love is no longer interested in being your partner. Yet this has brought such understanding in regards to the pain others have experienced due to my decisions. A new level of compassion has arrived in my life. Because of this, I have delivered numerous authentic apologies. It is surprising to experience such a deep sense of gratitude for this life shift.
A wonderful boy asked me if I would be staying in my new home permanently. I paused and realized I did not intend to ever live in this home alone. I replied saying that I only live here now because life threw me a curve ball and I intend to stay until I receive the next one.
Surrender and stillness are present in my life now. This life shift produces so much joy and sadness at the same time that it is indescribable. Trying not to live in the past or worry about the future is truly challenging. Tears show up everywhere. Yet the feeling beneath the tears is changing. They started out as devastation from the loss and the fear of being completely alone now that my daughter has gone to college and the group of people I called family no longer live with me. The reality facing me now is that I have two dogs to come home to. Thank God for the unconditional love of dogs! The sadness tears evolved into tears of gratitude. Support continues to show up in the most unsuspected ways and from the most surprising people. I have learned to embrace the love and kindness that show up in my life regardless of where it comes from.
This curve ball is a life’s way of kicking my ass onto a new path. I got the message! Now I just work on healing my broken heart, loving myself as I am right now, and opening my life to embrace simple joys. We all have experienced the curve balls of life. What we do with them is important. For me, I choose to focus on emotionally traveling to where I abandoned my true self so many years ago, picking up all the pieces of her that I left behind, and being curious about living life fully as my highest self will look like.
What has your healing response to a life curve ball been? Please share, as we have so much to offer one another!
Karen Jones This is why I will ALWAYS love my friend.
Mindy Warren I have had so many curve balls, I could fill this post with them but I know without a doubt you will come out of this stronger and even more amazing! No need to waste another day on someone who doesn’t want 100 percent of all you are and all you have to give!
Heidi Demasi Thanks for this. I have been going through similar things for a while and have not been able to put it out there. The people close to me know, but I otherwise live as if everything is okay. It’s not, but it will be. Bless you Kristin!
Womanly Journey I realize that I need the support of more friends. That means I have to be vulnerable and put this out there. I believe that working together with those who truly care about you, we can get through ANYTHING!
Cathy Wadsworth Jones Curve balls are so hard in the beginning. They can make us stronger and wiser. I wish that address was closer so we could see each other more often! Love you!
Shanna C Wright Prayers Kristen! Well written post; you are definitely not alone
Rachel Griffith Such wisdom and grace on your path. Curve ball- I no longer have my own business. I work for a great place now and it has benefits, but my goal of being with Zeph as much as I planned shifted dramatically. I still get hit with sadness and guilt. Ethan is spending 6 months in another country and i am still not used to his absence and that my time with him as a high schooler and life as we knew it is gone.. My goal to be present and enjoy and express joy in relationships I value most. Not hide because I am overwhelmed or disappointed.
Rachel Griffith Love to you too smile emoticon
Melanie L Arroyo Hugs from afar my love! You should plan a trip to our house in the mountains this year! Welcome anytime!!! Amazing experience!
Deana Barbour Lacks I feel I’m the queen of curveballs…just know that God loves you and you have a light that is always present around you , every time I see you my spirit is always lifted…you have a gift , love you.
Womanly Journey Thank you so much for all of the support and kindness. Again, it is amazing to experience such love and kindness! It comes in the most interesting ways from amazing people!
Brenna Wilkerson Brewer I love you and am here for you.
Lori O’Brien Kristen, I am so sorry and so shocked. I have a special place in my heart for you two and it isnt right to picture you apart. I too have been thrown a curve ball. I shrunk from outing myself to those who were not close enough to watch it happening . Y…See More
Bev Shelton Wilkerson I am sure you will make lemonade from these lemons. And it will be delicious! You are inspiring, even in trying times. Love and prayers…
Meredith ORourke You are an incredible woman. You were at 16 and you are now. God has you. You have God. One day at a time. Xoxo