Letting go and letting in: Flow is visualized
Posted on: October 14, 2015 • 0 Comments
Flow: the process of letting things go and letting things in our life. Today was day one of a personal healing retreat in Sedona, AZ. It included 4 parts. All were so valuable and intense, and some are difficult to put into words. The one by the creek about life flow was spectacular! Follow along as I attempt to walk you through this personal spiritual experience. Imagination is needed. While sitting at a wonderful creek, my retreat guide asked me to do some visualizations.
First visualization was about releasing what no longer serves me in life. I was to visualize behaviors, beliefs, and patterns I am holding onto and place each one in a separate sphere. Visualize bringing each sphere up to my heart then allow it to roll out of my heart, down the rocks, into the water, and down the creek. As this release occurred I was to say thank you for the things I was letting go as their purpose was done. So in essence bring up something, put it in a ball, let it go and say thank you.
This creek and the rocks in the water represent the flow of life. That exactly what we need flows to us and we are to let things that we are done with flow away from us. That sounds easy enough and peaceful. Well, I found myself laughing in the process. My thought was to be literal and do this one item at a time. As soon as I handed over permission for all behaviors, beliefs and patterns that no longer serve my highest good to return to the flow of the river, that’s when the flood happened. It was like knocking over a huge container of marbles. They just seemed like really happy marbles pouring into the water, while joyfully waving goodbye. I was delighted as well to see these marbles go home. I couldn’t say thank you back fast enough to each one, so I just said it to all as though they were one. There seemed to be one heavy bowling ball sized sphere left in my heart that felt dark and heavy. This one was reluctant to leave, for obviously I have fed this behavior for a very long time. This one stayed around to allow me time to look at it and name it. This final belief, behavior and pattern is called shame and unworthiness. Once that one dropped, I felt a nano second of loss. I have held onto that one for a long time, and have defined myself in many different ways through the belief of being unworthy and feeling shame. Yet as that loss left more space opened for what was next.
The second visualization was about welcoming in behaviors, beliefs and patterns that will bring me peace, love and joy while on my life journey. There was a calm flow of the water in the background. Slowly came these large cantaloupe sized brightly colored orbs. They reminded me of bubbles that I used to blow when I was a kid. The huge ones that only stayed full for a moment. Yet these bubbles flowed out of the water, up the rocks and into my heart. Remembering this was a visualization, and it was amazing to just experience this rather than over think it. These spheres continued to grow in size and color bringing a more intense feeling of love and gratitude with each one. I could not tell what these newly embraced gifts were exactly. They didn’t reveal themselves as a relationship or new job. Yet I can confidently say they are filled with love while feeling weightless in comparison to the released ones. The last bubble was so large that it passed through the trees along the creek and rolled until it enveloped me completely. It reminded me of the bubble that Glenda the good witch in Wizard of Oz traveled in. This supersized 10 foot in diameter sphere felt like home in my heart. That place where you know all things are right within and all around you. This was the moment when the word alright separated into All Right. No matter what I do, where I go, or who I am, the decisions made are ALL RIGHT when coming from the heart.
I imagine by the completion of day 3 I just might be levitating!