no more mind trickery!
Posted on: September 27, 2015 • 2 Comments
I am no longer responsible for the past. I did the very best that I could with what I knew at the time. That is what we all do at all times, unless we are intentionally manipulating the emotions of another. I can’t change the past, nor do I get some sort of credit for reworking it in my head. It makes me laugh when I finally stop the madness of mental trickery. I have spent countless hours dissecting the past. I can slice it and decide what I could have done differently in order to alter the outcome. Or at least what I could have done so I might have looked better, stronger, or less sad. I have perfected that skill in such a way that I tend to jump into the future. I practice conversations that will most likely never happen. I can’t remember how many times I meet my second ex husband in my mind. These imaginary interactions varied greatly but always included the minimum of the exchange of the word hello. Well, that is not how it happened when I actually saw him in real life the day before I left on this journey. When I saw him I made positive eye contact and sent love to his highest self. No word left my lips. That was the very best thing I could have done. So, I am releasing this ridiculous mental mind garbage of wasting the perfect present with planning the future and dissecting the past. I trust that I will do the very best that I can at the time. Just think of all the energy I will be saving! I can only imagine what I will do with that newly available energy!
2 Comments for no more mind trickery!
- On September 28, 2015 at 12:09 pm (Edit) Carol said:
- Oh my goodness, you hit the nail on the head with me. I needed to hear this today. I pray that I can quit dissecting the past. I, too, have wasted so much time doing this. I also need to forgive my self for the errors I have made and look to the future. You are an amazing lady. Stay safe and have fun.
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