9-6-15 Eye to Eye
It is the eve of my Womanly Journey Tree Hugging Tour start date and my Highlander arrives to take me out to dinner. I am dressed up, as this is a celebration! I am taking a huge leap of faith by investing in my heart. I am about to leave everything I have known for 9 weeks with one purpose: Calm my mind and listen to my heart.
The weather on this Saturday evening was lovely. We decided to go to the nicest restaurant in Danville with a deck area to enjoy the night air as well as a good meal. Upon arrival the hostess escorted us to the deck area. While opening the door, she is telling me that I can pick any place I’d like to sit. Just as she moves to allow me to walk through the door, I find myself looking right into the eyes of my second ex husband. We have not spoken to or seen each other since the day I moved out in December of 2014. My stomach drops as the adrenaline floods my veins. I simply maintained eye contact focusing on sending him love. It felt like eternity, yet it was maybe 5 seconds. He simply stared back with cold dead eyes. I then released the gaze and picked my seat, which was behind him at an angle that would have required him to turn all the way around to look at me again.
It was intensely interesting to look into the eyes of someone who used to love me. As his eyes were cold, mine were warm. No words passed my lips, but love from my heart was sent to his highest self. For that I am thankful. It also was great to have my Highlander behind me. It is always a bonus when there is a large muscular man over 6 feet tall standing behind me who is clearly on my side.
My second ex husband and his date left after finishing their evening at the restaurant. I was so thankful since I was in need of the ladies room. You see, I could not go back through the same set of doors to go to the restroom while they were still there. I knew I was not that ready to deal with his glare again. After a minute from them leaving, I hopped up and walked to the door. Fortunately, I looked through the glass first prior to opening the door. He was in the narrow hallway waiting outside the ladies room with his back to the door. I have done a great deal of healing, but I am aware of my limits. There was no way I could walk past him in that narrow corridor without touching him or speaking to him. Then, I would be in the bathroom with his girlfriend. Oh my! So I simply turned back around to go to my seat.
Well, now that the initial encounter is over, I can get on with my journey!
Here’s to collecting pieces of me!