Pretty giant steps have been taken in a forward moving intention over the past month. My house is for sale. The need to cut property ties to Danville is needed to set my heart free. Or at least, that is what my heart says. I desire complete freedom. I have aggressively gone through my “stuff” in order to lighten the physical load. While on the trip, I lightened my heart weight. Now it is time to do that physically.
In that physical lightening experience I was presented with the privilege of release. I returned a lifetime full of CDs to my first husband. They were something I held onto with both hands. Upon further examining that feeling, I discovered that I believed if I let the CDs go, then I’d lose the memories that were connected to all of those songs. Nothing can ever take those beautiful memories away. Releasing the physical CDs allowed me to gift him with something he has wanted for years. The bonus is that I could say Merry Christmas at the same time. He expressed gratitude and understanding that will forever be cherished.
When going through more boxes I found items of my second husband. Now that is a bit stickier, to say the least. My heart is healing beautifully, yet it is still sensitive. It is kind of like a sunburn now. It is necessary to pay attention and be gentle while moving on with life, is pretty much where I am. While putting up my beloved 1950s Aluminum Christmas tree, I found ornaments that were made by his boys when they were very young. I cherish the ornaments made by my daughter in her early years. I knew that I must return them to him. I also found the infamous rock and picture from our trip to the Grand Canyon 3 years ago in a box that made absolutely no sense at first.
The Grand Canyon trip was an incredible experience for me. I had a reoccurring dream of seeing myself meditate on the edge of the Grand Canyon as eagles flew up from the canyon. During a trip to Vegas, my 2nd ex-husband planned a trip to the Grand Canyon. We took a rock home and had a wonderful picture taken of us with the Eagle ridge in the background. During my packing prior to me leaving, I apparently took the rock and picture. He asked for them back. I could not find them anywhere. On occasion I have gone through a box I think it might be in, with no luck. Well, apparently in my saddened mental state I packed them in a place I knew I would never open; the box of king sized sheets. You see, my home is too small for a king size bed, so I would never go through that box while living here. In my effort to lighten my load, I repacked that box more efficiently into a plastic container and located the items by accident. Yikes, now what? Return and release. I returned the ornaments, rock and picture to the home I left a year ago with a card saying the rock and picture are yours to keep. Enjoy! Upon driving away, I felt such a wonderful heart lightening event.
I am thankful for the loving release of something physical so I could open my heart fully to the beauty of the memories! I love my old music! Now I have my own solo picture at the grand canyon with an amazing rainbow by my side, and I brought home new rocks!
My Asheville adventures of the “THIS IS IT TOUR” are already showing great fun! During my drive, I noticed a sense of peace and relaxation wash over me. I had driven about 120 miles from home. Apprently it takes 120 miles in the car to return to a peaceful mind and heart for me. Today in West Asheville I visited a DVD store with the most diverse and honest labeling I have ever seen. Great meals and great company are abundant here! I have already been invited to a few different events Saturday night. I wonder which I will choose. Stay tuned for the fun.
Here’s to returning and releasing!