Grand Canyon Round 3

South Rim Kristin SpringfieldEvery time I walk away from the Grand Canyon, I am a little bit stronger with my connection to God.  Today marked my third visit.  Each visit was to a different side of this amazing canyon. Today was to the south rim.  The rim trail allowed over six miles of walking along the edge of this majestic place.  Some of the trail was covered in snow and ice while other areas were clear.  The snow and ice will be gone soon with the warmth of the sun.  The walk along this trail reminded me of my life journey. My emotional patches of snow and ice have since melted away with the warmth of sun light called love.  While in the shade, it felt like the snow and ice might just last forever.  I forgot that my true path was always there, it simply needed the warm light of  love for the true path to be uncovered.  That love had to come from myself for myself and nothing else!  I understood the saying that you need to love yourself first, yet I just lacked the tools to do that.  Who knew that the secret for me was in the simplicity of hugging trees?

Each visit has given me the gift of awe, yet each time it is a bit different.  Today the weather was clear, crisp and perfect to see the entire canyon.  The amount of time that this canyon has been in creation brings great perspective to my life.  My stressful and troubling thoughts melt away with a big reminder that it does not matter whatsoever what I do specifically.  I just need to remember my only purpose is to send, be, and live a life filled with Love!

God speak through meGod speak to meI often ask God/ Universe/ Spirit (put in your word here) to speak to me and to speak through me.  I visualize the higher being or energy to be light.  Today while taking 1000 pictures and bunches of selfies I got carried away and accidentally took a few extras.  I go through my pictures at the end of each day to delete bunches.  In that process today, I stumbled across two photos that play with the location of  sunlight perfectly to visualize light/spirit/God speaking to me and then through me.  I found myself laughing as I discovered this.

A divine experience of love, appreciation and gratitude filled my day.  I had no plans of visiting the Grand Canyon again on this trip.  It just showed up as a suggestion three times by three separate people.  That is the magic number to get my attention.  Off I went and I returned with a renewed spirit of letting go!

Kristin Springfield

Lessons of self investing

Flagstaff self lovingExploring Flagstaff did not disappoint.  People here are perfect just like all the places I visit.  My time of exploring in this fashion will be ending soon.  It was cold with lots of snow and ice on my trails.  I returned home early for a hot bath and a quiet evening.  As I reflect, I consider what it is that I have learned during the last 5 months of investing in myself?  I love myself more today than I ever have.  I am at my very best when I am walking in nature.  I enjoy all types of weather, yet sunny and warm are highly preferred.  Writing is the most therapeutic thing for my soul.  If I can write while I am outside then it is a heavenly experience.  Driving across this country is a gift that I am grateful for, and look forward to repeating many times.  Being in awe of the landscapes puts life stressors in perspective, they don’t mean nearly as much as I thought.  Loving relationships and connections are the only things that matter to my heart and soul.  Money is a tool to enhance this life experience. I vow to not enslave myself to money in order to find peace, as that type of peace is temporary and ever changing.  I learned that financially supporting another who can take care of themselves is a sure fire way to create laziness.  Investing in my heart and soul allows me to show up for life fully and with great excitement.  When I look back over this last 18 months, I jump for joy as I look at myself in the mirror.  My happy weight has returned, I enjoy a feminine hairstyle and curves again!  I am woman hear me roar.  I have shed despair, depression and powerlessness.  I gain self-love and authentic connection.  I remember how amazing humanity is.  I desire to get back to creating a meaningful change in the lives of others.  Writing, friendship and Occupational Therapy are my current vehicles to make that connection.  I look forward to discovering other ways to do that.



The gentle nudges from the universe

cathedral rock inner journey Today I said goodbye to Sedona with the company of a friend I made during my previous visit.  Kurt with Inner Journeys accompanied me on a hike to one of his favorite places only locals know.  The sights just astound me.  It has been three months since I last spent time with Kurt.  During my previous visit he led me in powerful meditation sessions that focused on trusting the universe and life’s process.  One that sticks with me is the meditation by the flowing stream.  The resounding lesson is to let go of behaviors, beliefs and things that no longer serve me while trusting all I need will flow effortlessly to me.  My heart embraces that while my mind panics when I release agendas and desire to control.

Inner and Womanly Journey uniteKurt and I have a great time catching up on our life journeys since we last talked.  Three months proved to be a great time of releasing beliefs, behaviors and items to flow downstream.  Apparently, I forgot about the part of allowing life to flow to me.  I have been busily trying to plan the next step.  Kurt reminded me that the stream brings to me exactly what I need as I need it.  I shared with him my experience while hiking in Sedona  that I received an email requesting an interview for a job I had not even applied for.  He nodded and smiled.  Then our talk turned to the gentle nudges of the universe.  Something inside me said, “Fuck!”  My universe has been doing more than gently nudging in a particular direction.  I have pages of these gentle nudges from the universe that I am busy trying to disqualify.  No such luck.  I will just lean into love and see where the stream of life takes me.  At this moment it looks like I will be interviewing for the job in VA.  

Kurt reminded of a saying from Byron Katie that fits so clearly right now.  “There is your business, there is God’s business, and there is other people’s business.  All you have to worry about is your business for the rest is taken care of by God and others.”  So other people’s feelings or beliefs about my choices is their business, and not mine to be concerned with.  That is freeing and frightening at the same time.  Just like no matter what I decide to do it is ALL RIGHT.  Again my thought is  “Fuck!”  Here I go. 1, 2, 3 jump!  Peace and release bring with it a bit of excitement.  The fear falls away and all that is left is love.  It really is simple.  I just keep trying to complicate this journey.  

flagstaff Womanly JourneyI am loving right now. My goal is to continue loving each and every right now!  As my mind continues to blow apart, I realize that I so need some more walking.  Fortunately, Flagstaff and all the surrounding areas provide many opportunities for walking.

Kristin Springfield