Midwest Journey

kinship!In the morning I leave for Indiana. I will be traveling the same roads I did a year ago on my first day of the Tree Hugging tour. My excitement overflows and I wonder when sleep will find me tonight. My travels tomorrow will bring me to a visit with my brothers. There is a special relationship with my brothers. I always longed to be closer to them in life! As a young girl and woman I wanted to be part of my brother’s world. They are 10 and 12 years older than me. When they left for college, I was in elementary school. When I left for college they were married with children. When I was married with a young child they had teenage children. Needless to say we have always been on different paths for all of my life. This week will be the first time that all of us will be together without parents, children or the holidays. I am delighted! They both have been the biggest advocates during my transitions during the past 2 years, actually for my entire life. I just did not recognize all the love and support from my brothers until my life turned upside down. My life so needed to be shaken up in order to settle into something wonderful. I did not realize that I would have to wait until I was in my 40’s to be on a similar path as my brothers, but I will take it and enjoy every moment of it. Stay tuned for journey pictures!
Namaste,
Kristin
The Youngest

One experience away

Consider this:  We are all just one experience away from releasing our judgment

Think back to when you were a child. Life was lived in absolutes and unknowingly filled with judgment.   Do you remember thinking or learning the following things?

  • Kids that wore nice clothes were rich.
  • Kids that wore dirty clothes were poor.
  • Families with big houses were successful.
  • Kids that were always in trouble would never succeed.
  • Teachers that were pretty were nicer.

Before we all left middle school we slowly learned that many of our youthful judgments were incorrect. However just as we release those incorrect beliefs, the list evolves as we grow up to include things we would never do.  Have you ever thought or heard any of the following statements?

  • I’d never date outside of my race.
  •  I’d never have an abortion.
  • I’d never be gay or love anyone who is.
  • I’d never let anyone abuse me.
  • I’d never divorce.
  • I’d never cheat.
  • I’ll never have debt or everyone has debt
  • And the topper was always and I’d never tolerate anyone who did any of those things.

Well, all of that is easy to say when it is abstract and not in your home. The fastest way to blow up a judgment is to have it land in your lap.  I remember a friend who was in a medical waiting room to discuss what birth control would be best for her.  There happened to be a pamphlet about a local abortion support group.  She picked it up and held it up to me while boldly stating, “I would never do that!”  10 minutes after she was called back to talk with the doctor she learned that she was pregnant at 17 years old.  Her opinion of safe abortion and teen pregnancy changed in an instant.

Or what happens when you hold the belief that dating outside of your race is wrong?  Then you meet the kindest person who makes your heart sing, treats you with respect, and you truly compliment each other’s life, who happens to be a different race than you.  Do you hold onto your judgment or do you open your heart to releasing this limiting belief? I vote for releasing!  The great part of free will is that you have a choice to hold on or open your mind.

It’s fascinating how much healing is possible when a judgment is released!  I have come to understand that nice clothes and a big house do not always equal financial wealth and success.  Pretty people aren’t always the nice ones. Dirty clothes don’t mean you are poor.  Having difficulty in school does not mean you won’t amount to anything.  All of the grown up judgments are bull shit too.

We are also one experience away from learning what we take for granted.  At one point in my career my schedule went from 5 days a week to include working every 3rd weekend.  I was frustrated that I had not savored my weekend time more, since now I was going to have less of them. When relationships end there is often something that you wish you did more with that person, but now it is too late.  Pause, pay attention, open your mind and send love in every direction you have available to you.

Namaste!

Kristin Springfield

 

2 years makes a huge difference!

Today is the 2 year anniversary of the official end of my marriage.  I recall sitting in the golden chairs of shame shaking and crying as I realized that I was suddenly homeless.  Not homeless in a way that would leave me under a bridge, but homeless in the way that there was no safe place to rest my head and heart where it would be protected.  I asked him to sit with me.  He complied to be in the same room, yet would not sit.  I started with saying I wanted to shift the energy and share what we appreciated about each other.  I was ready to start by saying how much I appreciated the kiss I received in my sleep as he left for work before the sunrise.  I never got the chance.  He turned his attention to me saying he wanted a divorce and wanted me to move out immediately.

Today, I am surrounded with people who gladly share what they appreciate about me with ease.  I don’t even have to ask.  Today I heard thank you for all I do  from 8 different people.  All I was doing that they thanked me for was just me being me.  I did nothing spectacular in my eyes.   A stranger told me that they love my purpose and blog.  15 people shared that they couldn’t wait to read my book while others confidently told me I would go far with my writing.  Today, I have more than a home, I have a life filled with passion and purpose that I am proud of.  I have created a home within my heart and soul that can never be taken away.

I look different on the outside and inside than I did 2 years ago.  My heart is open and actively healing with purpose to be complete.  I am stronger and braver than I ever imagined or gave myself credit for.  How many of us minimize ourselves?  I have been a pro at that, but today I pause.  I am grateful for the greatest gift of ejection from a life of destruction that ended 2 years ago today!  

Namaste!
Kristin Springfield

Radiating gratitude