I am on the road again and love it! The residual anxiety that accompanies me at all times finally releases its grip here. It is funny how I don’t recognize the anxiety until it is gone. A relaxation sets in like a warm blanket. Sweating on the trails of Sedona, driving through Monument Valley and landing in the arms of my dear friend, Erin, reminds me of what is important in life. In the act of being with Mother Nature sets my heart and soul free while the chronic anxiety is soothed.
When a child is scared the reassuring touch from a mother solves everything. It washes away the fear and anxiety while replacing it with love and confidence. I can concur anything with love, courage, confidence and a splash of adventure. Out here in the dessert I am reminded that all of those things are available to me (and you) at all times. That reassuring love speaks loudest to me when I am in the dessert. Or maybe because life is quiet here and I listen more. I lean into Mother Nature while she provides the ultimate reassurance.
There is a sense of duty on this trip. Life is ever changing and independence is something that is easily taken for granted. Independent living has changed gradually for my Dad over the past 5 years, as he has Parkinson’s. My instructions for this trip from both of my parents were clear, “Go have a good time! Travel for us!” Unfortunately, they are no longer able to travel. I am reminded to fully embrace my abilities that I have today. My level of independence will also change as years pass and life happens. It is my privilege to hike these mountains, scurry over rocks, sit cross legged by the creek to meditate, to drive across this great landscape, and to hug trees with over flowing gratitude. So I am out there getting after it! Now I spend time with a wonderful friend in beautiful Moab for several days. AHHHH!