Let it go in the enchanted forest

Let it go in the enchanted forest!

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Posted on: September 26, 2015 • 0 Comments

Glacier park served up an amazing day!  The lakes, mountains and trees feed my soul in a whole new way.  The day started with a walk through the enchanted forest.  The forest ground was soft due to all of the moss.  I felt like I was in a Disney movie.  Except the wild life is real and can’t speak English.  The trees smelled so wonderful.  The smell of earth and growth just consumed the area. Just so peaceful and inviting.  Some were growing straight out of rock.  If these incredible trees can grow out of rock, I can certainly grow regardless of where I am planted.

I took a yoga class outside one day and the instructor said something that has stuck with me.  She shared that she was very frustrated with where she was living and her mood was foul.  Her mother told her to bloom where you are planted.  I am not currently planted anywhere, yet it is important to bloom wherever I am.  Today in Glacier I decided to bloom.  In order to bloom I have to put a few things down.  While in the enchanted forests, I decided to let go.  I let go of the past pain, for it no longer serves me.  I let go of the idea and attachments I have held so dearly to relationships, for they too limit my ability to experience myself and to express love fully.  I let go of what I thought I was suppose to be, for those thoughts were created as a child without any understanding of authentic love.  I actually forgive myself, for I did the very best that I could at the time with what I understood to be true.  I then allow the peace to wash over me.

Whether I like it or not, it is difficult to truly put the past down.  I drove today through an area of the forest that burned about 3 years ago.  There are numerous dead, burnt trees in the midst of a vibrant new forest.  The dead trees provide nutrients for the new trees and new growth.  Nature offers so many examples for life.  Out of death there comes new vibrant life.  It reminds me of my favorite scene from Fantasia 2000 with the fairy.  That new life is there because of the death of the past.  The past offers nutrients and space for new growth.  Truly letting go of my past means that I allow and offer space for new ideas and opportunities to grow.

I remember quitting smoking a long time ago.  Declaring that I quit was easy in comparison to not lighting up a cigarette 1000 times a day.  Letting the past go is similar to quitting smoking for me.  I realize intellectually that it does not serve my emotional or physical health, yet there  is still a pull to pick it up and light it.  Everyday I make 1000 micro-decisions to stay true to myself and stay in this beautiful present moment.  I know that I am doing the very best that I can and may falter with a desire to pick up the past in order to pretend how I should have done things differently.  I just keep breathing in and out the very fresh air that is around me.  An amazing chant to ground me is to remember I have arrived while I breathe in and I am home as I breathe out.  However, on the really difficult days, I am so glad to find myself behind a car with someone smoking a cigarette and I breathe in deeply my past for just a moment.  I can then let it go a little bit more. If nothing else works, all I have to do is crank up the theme song from Disney’s Frozen, Let it go, then I feel so much better!

Namaste!

Kristin

I know your heart

I know your heart

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Posted on: September 24, 2015 • 0 Comments

“I follow your blog.  It saddens me and makes me happy at the same time.  How could anyone treat another person like you were treated?  Especially, you?  I know your heart. ”  I almost had to pull the car over as I listened.  Authenticity travels through the phone and pierces my heart in such a way that tears came to my eyes as I said the only thing I could, “Thank you.”

I write as though no one reads it in order to process.  I post to connect. Anything I receive in return for putting my soul out there is a gift.  The person who shared these authentic words with me,  I have not spoken to or seen in years.  Authentic writing and sharing win every time.   I wonder why it took 4 decades to sum up the courage to share my authentic self?  Why does it take such despair to touch another’s heart enough to reach out?  Tell someone today that you know their heart, it may be just what they need to hear.  For it was exactly what I needed today!

Thank you to all of you for your support, encouragement, taking the time to read and for sharing your authentic self!

Namaste! (The light in me honors the light in you)

Kristin

Be aware of what you ask for

Be aware of what you ask for

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Posted on: September 23, 2015 • 0 Comments

We have all heard the saying, “Be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it.”  That sounds a bit threatening with a bit of doom in it.  So I am switching it up .  How about, “Be aware of what you are asking for, as it will show up in unexpected ways.”  Being aware is similar to being conscious.  Pay attention to your intention and ask from your heart.  Then allow the universe to bring it to you.  On this journey I have set the intention to be present and aware.  With all that being said, obviously, that is not possible for me to do that all the time.  Hell, I am distracted and trying to release my panic about the future while taking in the beauty of each moment.

During one of my long driving days, I found myself missing male companionship.  Offhandedly I said out loud that I would really like a kiss from a male.  Notice the word choice, male.  I didn’t think anything of it, as that is not going to happen along this trip, or so I thought.  I continued to a cabin in South Dakota.  The property is beautiful, so I set out on a walk down to the river.  I had heard there were donkeys on the property, yet hadn’t seen them.  Along my walk the donkeys magically appeared.  One male and two females.  Guess which one came right up to me?  Yep, the male.  Of course I didn’t think anything of it.  After I pet the donkey, I went on to finish my walk. Sitting by the river and meditating my mind finally quieted.  Upon my return journey, I spotted the donkey clan again.  I stopped to pet them again. The only one interested was the male.  I was rubbing the space between his ears, realizing that is exactly what I am doing for myself along this trip, rubbing the space between my ears.  All of a sudden the donkey raises its head and kisses me.

Yep, I was kissed by an ass!  He is way cuter and more loving than any of the asses that have kissed me in the past!  At the moment I realized that I just received what I had asked for less than 4 hours before, I burst into tears.  Then I laughed!  How many times have I received what I asked for and just failed to recognize it?  Oh, probably a million.  Clearly, I need to pay attention to what I am asking for and what shows up.

After the ass named, Jack, kissed me he followed me around until I left.  When I walked up to the cabin he ran after me.  When I was sitting on the screened in porch talking with another guest, we looked up to see his butt in the window.  I went outside to find him waiting for me.  The next morning on my walk to the main house for breakfast, I met Jack (ass) and shared more kissing and love.  I have to laugh at the realization I was kissed by an ass.  I am done kissing asses in the human form.  It is not worth it, and too painful in the end.  I’d rather have a loving donkey.  Fortunately, I don’t have to do that either!

I laugh about the speed in which I received what I asked for.  I realized that I needed to be specific and aware of when asking.  Do I really want to be kissed?  Sometimes, but that is not it entirely.  What I want is to be truly connected at a loving level with myself.  True companionship has to start within me.  I need first to be compassionate, forgiving and loving to myself.  Then and only then will the people I need to further grow with show up.  So, I put out there my intention to connect with all the parts of myself in a loving and compassionate way. Yet more male animals have shown up to give kisses.

Let’s review all the kindness I have received from males over the past few states.  South Dakota brought me Jack(ass).  A sweet grey and white young male who followed me around after I rubbed in between his ears.  Idaho brought Derk, the great Dane.  He surprised me with kissing me immediately as I was sitting on the couch.  I turned my head to talk with Hostel Beth and there he was looking right at me, eye to eye.  Before I could scream from surprise he kissed me!  Upon returning to the hostel after a long walk, I spotted something ahead.  I stopped the car to get a better look, for I wasn’t sure if it was a person or a deer.  Nope, it was Derk.  He took off running toward the car.  I opened the window and smooch!  He followed me down the driveway and into the house. It was authentic love!

Montana presented my white horse and Great Pyrenees. A kiss Sunday night from the horse and one Monday morning from the dog.  Oh, and the horse farts every time he coughs.  I laugh out loud every time I hear it, because farts are funny!   This is so interesting and wonderful.   All of the males are safe! None will break my heart.  There will be no shared bank accounts, property purchasing, kid raising, or harsh words.  Perfection!  I wonder what else is to show up along this journey.

It is funny how the universe shows up!  I am certainly paying attention to what I am asking for and what shows up.

Namaste with a smile,

Kristin Springfield