Let’s get settled!

This gypsy-like lifestyle is filled with positives for someone like me.  Yet there is the part of traveling and discovering new places that can be completely exhausting!  The amount of brain power required at every waking moment is enough to wear even me down, and I am a Springfield for crying out loud!  The Springfield clan is known for their insane amount of energy, and I usually hit my energetic wall within the first 21 days of any new place.

Having a home in the same town for years offers thought free opportunities that I completely took for granted!  In a new place, there is never a moment when I can just go on automatic pilot.  I have no idea where anything is anywhere at all!  It takes 3 times as long to grocery shop because I have no clue where they keep the gluten-free bread if they even have any!  I hardly know my way around the town, it takes much longer to plot my errands and efficiency might as well be thrown out of the window!

Here are a few things required to create a sense of comfort for me:

  • a place to call home with an opportunity for “Full Family Infiltration”
  • a grocery store that has all the items for a gluten-free life
  • a hairdresser
  • a gym or place to sweat
  • a place to yoga whether that is a studio or a park is irrelevant,
  • a coffee spot
  • a wine spot
  • a friend to enjoy the new area with
  • to feel like I am actually getting the hang of all things at work

Some of the items on that list come easily and quickly.  Yet others may never happen.  To make matters more complicated, I thrive on efficiency!  I look at everything, literally everything, for ways to be more efficient and effective.  In the first 3 weeks, I feel like I am moving through sludge.  Everything is slow, new and foreign.   So I work to create a foundation of safety and efficiency in order to get busy on peaceful exploration.

I am delighted that after 3 weeks I have found many of the things that gift me with a sense of comfort and it feels amazing!  Thankfully, this assignment is 6 months, and I won’t have to reestablish my “home” until then.  In the meantime, I intend to devour all the amazing things this area has to offer and breathe while I enjoy taking for granted that I now know where my bread is in the grocery store that I can efficiently drive to in less than 10 minutes!

Settling in nicely,



Settling in with gratitude!

Journey and I are settling into our new “home”.  We have found places to hike, parks to yoga in and a home where we are adored.  Work can always be tricky for a temporary employee.  This new assignment started a week ago, and my mind is completely blown away!  I stepped into the office to be greeted by a team of happy faces, laughter, and kindness.  This was such a breath of fresh air.  As it is not always a welcoming experience when a temporary person walks on to the job.  After a tour of the office, my seat was pointed out, where I found a frame with all new employees names featured.  Mine was included in the list, and the spelling was correct!  At my seat was everything I would need to succeed in orientation.  My heart began to swell with delight and I could feel the tears coming behind my eyes.  When I learned that all meals during our first few days of orientation were provided along with a personal travel coffee mug, the tears escaped.  I apologized to my new boss as she smiled and let me know I was okay.  She went a step further to make sure I knew how glad they are to have me on their team.

Such kindness in the workplace makes my heart sing.  My life experiences have brought me to a place where the VERY simple gestures of life filled with compassion, consideration, and kindness are so deeply appreciated.  There were times in my life that I would have not have described this orientation as extravagant and it certainly would not have brought tears to my eyes.    Is this shift due to a personal history of being shit on in the professional and personal environment?  Maaayyyybeee.   Yet, it is wonderful evolving into a person who is grateful for the small things in life.  I have come to a place where I truly understand it really is the small things that people do that create the most impact.  I chose to focus on the loving gestures coming my way.

Thank you Bayada Home Health Care for treating me with such compassion, and creating an environment where I am welcome.

Simple gestures matter!

Forever Grateful

One power: Love

During my last week off, I spent 3 days on an emotional healing retreat in Sedona before settling into my winter home in Sierra Vista.  I spent time in guided meditation and other amazing types of healing sessions all centered on letting go of residual emotional garbage that continues to replay in my mind regardless of my efforts.  Something clicked this time; there is only one power worth investing in, and that is Love!

Three years ago I quit life, got in my car and drove across the country with the purpose to hug trees and love myself again.  It was a wildly successful trip, yet healing a lifetime of self-depreciating beliefs takes more than one road trip to rewrite loving messages across my heart, soul, and mind. I gifted myself with 4 days of healing with Inner Journeys on that 2015 trip.  Returning to Inner Journeys on this particular trip of 2018 felt kind of like coming home.  It is always easier to work with trusted healers after they already understand your brand of “messed up”.

The resonating message during this retreat revolved around my lack of feeling safe and worthy of love, help, companionship, etc.  For those of you who understand chakras, my root chakra was in dire straits.  During a session, I shared that frequently I feel as though I’m hovering above my bed and that I have to remind myself that it is okay to allow the bed/floor/earth to hold me.  It was not so surprising to realize, that I am in constant fight or flight mode.  A go-to technique for me to find peace is physical exhaustion.  You pick the physical activity that I possess the skills for and I will do it until I have nothing left; yoga, running, cycling, hiking, and dancing.  If I am not sweating, it isn’t “enough”. I am able to understand this underlying insane drive and chose to do something different.

I am a Human Being, not a Human Doing. Being requires nothing of me other than to be me, oh and breathe.  Learning more specific meditation tailored to me proved to be profound.  Yet understanding and embracing there is only one power, LOVE, is the game changer.  My focus, energy, thoughts, and beliefs have been divided between Fear and Love.  More often than not, Fear received all of my attention with the hope that one day I would conquer the Fear and then Love would win.  Well, that is not how it works.  I had it backward.  Love is the only power worth my time, effort and energy. Then and only then will Fear fall away.

Choosing Love over Fear is simple to say and embrace when in the safety of my room or in the blissful Sedona environment.  Yet, step outside of Sedona and watch what happens.  The micro decisions made all day long prove to be harder than you realize!  All is fine with focusing on Love with ease until you are lost in the woods, literally.

Just yesterday I took my first hike in Sierra Vista, AZ.  According to my trusty hiking app, this particular canyon hike was to be a 5-mile loop.  Well, that loop turned into a 9 mile vaguely looped unmarked ending with hopes to find the car.  Now that is when it took everything I had inside of me to feed Love, not Fear.  I had water, snacks, a tracker with an SOS button if I got into real trouble, good hiking shoes, no injuries so I kept going.  Eventually, I was going downhill and found a house at the beginning of a road with a light on.  As Journey and I walked up to the house soaked because it had been raining for the past hour and a half, I had to work to choose Love.  I found myself giggling at the sight we must be when a woman nervously answered the door.  I wonder what she chose, Love or Fear.  All I wanted to know was where we were.  Fortunately, we were on the same road as our car according to the last directions I used on Google.  Sadly we were at 33 on the house numbers and our car was at 799.    Continuing to choose Love, we ran and walked along the street to our car and arrived before dark.  Safely making it home we were just in time for chicken soup.  The maps for the area have been downloaded to my Garmin, my housemates’ numbers are in my contacts, and we are ready for our next hike.

Embracing Love rather than Fear kept me much calmer, allowed me to talk a LOT to God along the hike, and kept me grounded during the whole experience.  Today I explored a nearby town, Bisbee.  Being unfamiliar with that area as well, I connected with shopkeepers and followed their advice.  I wandered around aimlessly most of the afternoon.  Much to my surprise, I was more relaxed because there were people around to ask for ideas and directions at every turn.  Continuing to choose Love gifted me with the opportunity to be completely present in each moment of my day.  It was nothing short of heavenly!

Choosing LOVE,


Forever student