Start the Tree hugging tour!

9-6-15 Eye to Eye
It is the eve of my Womanly Journey Tree Hugging Tour start date and my Highlander arrives to take me out to dinner. I am dressed up, as this is a celebration! I am taking a huge leap of faith by investing in my heart. I am about to leave everything I have known for 9 weeks with one purpose: Calm my mind and listen to my heart.

The weather on this Saturday evening was lovely. We decided to go to the nicest restaurant in Danville with a deck area to enjoy the night air as well as a good meal. Upon arrival the hostess escorted us to the deck area. While opening the door, she is telling me that I can pick any place I’d like to sit. Just as she moves to allow me to walk through the door, I find myself looking right into the eyes of my second ex husband. We have not spoken to or seen each other since the day I moved out in December of 2014. My stomach drops as the adrenaline floods my veins. I simply maintained eye contact focusing on sending him love. It felt like eternity, yet it was maybe 5 seconds. He simply stared back with cold dead eyes. I then released the gaze and picked my seat, which was behind him at an angle that would have required him to turn all the way around to look at me again.

It was intensely interesting to look into the eyes of someone who used to love me. As his eyes were cold, mine were warm. No words passed my lips, but love from my heart was sent to his highest self. For that I am thankful. It also was great to have my Highlander behind me. It is always a bonus when there is a large muscular man over 6 feet tall standing behind me who is clearly on my side.

My second ex husband and his date left after finishing their evening at the restaurant. I was so thankful since I was in need of the ladies room. You see, I could not go back through the same set of doors to go to the restroom while they were still there. I knew I was not that ready to deal with his glare again. After a minute from them leaving, I hopped up and walked to the door. Fortunately, I looked through the glass first prior to opening the door. He was in the narrow hallway waiting outside the ladies room with his back to the door. I have done a great deal of healing, but I am aware of my limits. There was no way I could walk past him in that narrow corridor without touching him or speaking to him. Then, I would be in the bathroom with his girlfriend. Oh my! So I simply turned back around to go to my seat.

Well, now that the initial encounter is over, I can get on with my journey!

Here’s to collecting pieces of me!
Namaste!
Kristin Springfield

One month at home!

12/9/15

Sunrise

Pretty giant steps have been taken in a forward moving intention over the past month.  My house is for sale.  The need to cut property ties to Danville is needed to set my heart free.  Or at least, that is what my heart says.  I desire complete freedom.  I have aggressively gone through my “stuff” in order to lighten the physical load.  While on the trip, I lightened my heart weight.  Now it is time to do that physically.  

In that physical lightening experience I was presented with the privilege of release.  I returned a lifetime full of CDs to my first husband.  They were something I held onto with both hands.  Upon further examining that feeling, I discovered that I believed if I let the CDs go, then I’d lose the memories that were connected to all of those songs.  Nothing can ever take those beautiful memories away.  Releasing the physical CDs allowed me to gift him with something he has wanted for years.  The bonus is that I could say Merry Christmas at the same time.   He expressed gratitude and understanding that will forever be cherished.

 

When going through more boxes I found items of my second husband.  Now that is a bit stickier, to say the least.  My heart is healing beautifully, yet it is still sensitive.  It is kind of like a sunburn now. It is necessary to pay attention and be gentle while moving on with life, is pretty much where I am.  While putting up my beloved 1950s Aluminum Christmas tree, I found ornaments that were made by his boys when they were very young.  I cherish the ornaments made by my daughter in her early years.  I knew that I must return them to him.  I also found the infamous rock and picture from our trip to the Grand Canyon 3 years ago in a box that made absolutely no sense at first.  

The Grand Canyon trip was an incredible experience for me.  I had a reoccurring dream of seeing myself meditate on the edge of the Grand Canyon as eagles flew up from the canyon. During a trip to Vegas, my 2nd ex-husband planned a trip to the Grand Canyon.  We took a rock home and had a wonderful picture taken of us with the Eagle ridge in the background.  During my packing prior to me leaving, I apparently took the rock and picture.  He asked for them back.  I could not find them anywhere.  On occasion I have gone through a box I think it might be in, with no luck.  Well, apparently in my saddened mental state I packed them in a place I knew I would never open; the box of king sized sheets.  You see, my home is too small for a king size bed, so I would never go through that box while living here.  In my effort to lighten my load, I repacked that box more efficiently into a plastic container and located the items by accident.  Yikes, now what?  Return and release.  I returned the ornaments, rock and picture to the home I left a year ago with a card saying the rock and picture are yours to keep.  Enjoy!  Upon driving away, I felt such a wonderful heart lightening event.  

 

I am thankful for the loving release of something physical so I could open my heart fully to the beauty of the memories!  I love my old music!  Now I have my own solo picture at the grand canyon with an amazing rainbow by my side, and I brought home new rocks!

 

My Asheville adventures of the “THIS IS IT TOUR” are already showing great fun!  During my drive, I noticed a sense of peace and relaxation wash over me.  I had driven about 120 miles from home.  Apprently it takes 120 miles in the car to return to a peaceful mind and heart for me.  Today in West Asheville I visited a DVD store with the most diverse and honest labeling I have ever seen.  Great meals and great company are abundant here!  I have already been invited to a few different events Saturday night. I wonder which I will choose.  Stay tuned for the fun.

 

Here’s to returning and releasing!

Namaste!

Kristin

Business meeting sheds new light!

logo pic

My plan was to meet with a business consultant to guide me through a potential new business set up.  I was delighted to spend time learning that I don’t need to do any new business.  Yet this man seemed to understand my situation so quickly.  He asked me the simple question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”  My immediate response is “I want to write, travel, write more and speak to people about going for what they wanted!”  His response was perfect and simple, “Then do that.”   I share that I don’t want to work full time for anyone else.  He says, “Then don’t. You will need to bring in revenue while focusing on writing.  Yet, you can do this!”

Wow!  

Another friend asks me another perfect question, “In five years from now, If you could do anything and make money doing it, what would it be?”  I’d write for my blog and other blogs, write books and speak about the journey.  I want this journey of mine to help others.  Please don’t make all the years of confusion and pain be for nothing.  Let this experience be of benefit others in some positive way!  

My desire to move from Danville is to create a different life experience.  I am grateful for all of my 21 years in Danville.  I created a family twice and loved the family friendly environment of the town.  It was a wonderful place to begin my career as an Occupational Therapist.  I have found some amazing friends in Danville that I will cherish for the rest of my life.  Thank you Danville for 21 years of adult life.  It is time to create a new life someplace new.  I am simply not sure when or where I will find that place.  My home is for sale and is on the look out for the very best next owner.  

 

Stay tuned for a website rebuild to include an ebook about the Tree Hugging Tour!

 

Namaste!

Kristin Springfield