Be aware of what you ask for

Be aware of what you ask for

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Posted on: September 23, 2015 • 0 Comments

We have all heard the saying, “Be careful what you wish for, because you just might get it.”  That sounds a bit threatening with a bit of doom in it.  So I am switching it up .  How about, “Be aware of what you are asking for, as it will show up in unexpected ways.”  Being aware is similar to being conscious.  Pay attention to your intention and ask from your heart.  Then allow the universe to bring it to you.  On this journey I have set the intention to be present and aware.  With all that being said, obviously, that is not possible for me to do that all the time.  Hell, I am distracted and trying to release my panic about the future while taking in the beauty of each moment.

During one of my long driving days, I found myself missing male companionship.  Offhandedly I said out loud that I would really like a kiss from a male.  Notice the word choice, male.  I didn’t think anything of it, as that is not going to happen along this trip, or so I thought.  I continued to a cabin in South Dakota.  The property is beautiful, so I set out on a walk down to the river.  I had heard there were donkeys on the property, yet hadn’t seen them.  Along my walk the donkeys magically appeared.  One male and two females.  Guess which one came right up to me?  Yep, the male.  Of course I didn’t think anything of it.  After I pet the donkey, I went on to finish my walk. Sitting by the river and meditating my mind finally quieted.  Upon my return journey, I spotted the donkey clan again.  I stopped to pet them again. The only one interested was the male.  I was rubbing the space between his ears, realizing that is exactly what I am doing for myself along this trip, rubbing the space between my ears.  All of a sudden the donkey raises its head and kisses me.

Yep, I was kissed by an ass!  He is way cuter and more loving than any of the asses that have kissed me in the past!  At the moment I realized that I just received what I had asked for less than 4 hours before, I burst into tears.  Then I laughed!  How many times have I received what I asked for and just failed to recognize it?  Oh, probably a million.  Clearly, I need to pay attention to what I am asking for and what shows up.

After the ass named, Jack, kissed me he followed me around until I left.  When I walked up to the cabin he ran after me.  When I was sitting on the screened in porch talking with another guest, we looked up to see his butt in the window.  I went outside to find him waiting for me.  The next morning on my walk to the main house for breakfast, I met Jack (ass) and shared more kissing and love.  I have to laugh at the realization I was kissed by an ass.  I am done kissing asses in the human form.  It is not worth it, and too painful in the end.  I’d rather have a loving donkey.  Fortunately, I don’t have to do that either!

I laugh about the speed in which I received what I asked for.  I realized that I needed to be specific and aware of when asking.  Do I really want to be kissed?  Sometimes, but that is not it entirely.  What I want is to be truly connected at a loving level with myself.  True companionship has to start within me.  I need first to be compassionate, forgiving and loving to myself.  Then and only then will the people I need to further grow with show up.  So, I put out there my intention to connect with all the parts of myself in a loving and compassionate way. Yet more male animals have shown up to give kisses.

Let’s review all the kindness I have received from males over the past few states.  South Dakota brought me Jack(ass).  A sweet grey and white young male who followed me around after I rubbed in between his ears.  Idaho brought Derk, the great Dane.  He surprised me with kissing me immediately as I was sitting on the couch.  I turned my head to talk with Hostel Beth and there he was looking right at me, eye to eye.  Before I could scream from surprise he kissed me!  Upon returning to the hostel after a long walk, I spotted something ahead.  I stopped the car to get a better look, for I wasn’t sure if it was a person or a deer.  Nope, it was Derk.  He took off running toward the car.  I opened the window and smooch!  He followed me down the driveway and into the house. It was authentic love!

Montana presented my white horse and Great Pyrenees. A kiss Sunday night from the horse and one Monday morning from the dog.  Oh, and the horse farts every time he coughs.  I laugh out loud every time I hear it, because farts are funny!   This is so interesting and wonderful.   All of the males are safe! None will break my heart.  There will be no shared bank accounts, property purchasing, kid raising, or harsh words.  Perfection!  I wonder what else is to show up along this journey.

It is funny how the universe shows up!  I am certainly paying attention to what I am asking for and what shows up.

Namaste with a smile,

Kristin Springfield

Exhaustion quiets the mind!

Exhaustion sure does quiet the mind

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Posted on: September 22, 2015 • 8 Comments

One of my objectives on this journey is to quiet my mind.  I must report that is is not as easy as it sounds, yet I have found one key to this quietness.  Exhaustion will shut up the mind, personality, and ego every time! At least it is working for me.  The exhaustion I am talking about is the physical kind.  Emotional exhaustion does quiet certain parts of the mind, but not all of them.  Anxiety, fear and sadness can penetrate through emotional exhaustion as long as I am conscious.  After that, those things can work their way into my dreams.  Physical exhaustion calms all of that down nicely.   I have been hiking most days along this trip.  The quietness that accompanies me on the last half of each trip is spectacular.  Today that peaceful mind happened within the first hour of the 5+ hour hike.  This was the most strenuous hike I have ever taken.  The challenge in this quiet mind intention is to stay “Bear Aware” along the way.  I have to make noise in order to not startle a bear.  I am sorry, but I know who would be startled if a bear and I were to meet.  The bear has a definite advantage over my bell, songs, bear spray and self calming chit chat!   The self calming chat I found myself saying today in order to deter bears made me laugh.  I have been an avid exerciser throughout my adolescence and adulthood.  As the sweat dripped down my face as I ascended to over 9600 feet in elevation, I reminded myself that all of that exercise lead me to this moment.  And I was going to make it to the lake, damnit!  I even found myself saying thank you for all for the insane stuff I had be doing in cross-fit over the past year.  Those walking lunges sure did come in handy today.  As it felt like 5 miles of up hill lunges followed by 5 more miles down hill.  I could almost hear Wes (the cross-fit guru) reminding me that it’s not that bad and I have got this! I am thankful that tomorrow is a driving day, for there is no way I would be hiking! As the exhaustion reached its peak,  a wonderful sense of peace and gratitude seemed to take over.  My bear aware talk took on a loving release of all the pain that brought me to this point in my journey.  Forgiving myself did bring tears to my eyes today along the hike.  I have made decisions that did not serve my highest self in the past.  I wanted to be loved from the outside so I would feel good enough to love myself on the inside.  It never worked out.  Actually it usually turned horribly wrong.  In my peaceful mind,  I forgave myself and loved myself more today than yesterday.  This trip is the best thing I could have ever done. When I am physically exhausted all the bullshit falls away.  What is left is love, gratitude (for finishing this hike), and my quirky gifts from God.   I am looking forward to being able to quiet my mind without the physical exhaustion! Namaste! Kristin

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Coincidence or not?

Coincidence or not?

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Posted on: September 21, 2015 • 2 Comments

Coincidence or not?!  I visited the lovely town of Livingston, MT this afternoon.  Art galleries, coffee shops, Victorian homes, a  tattoo shop, bars and thrift stores are nestled here.  Hmmh.  I love all of those things now and I most definitely did at 22 years old, when I graduated college.  Is this my current spot? Or one I am collecting my youthful pieces?  I walked into a gift store and found my favorite line of jewelry, Holly Ashi.

Delightfully they had the pair of earrings that I lost one of 6 months ago and just had made into a pendant before I left for this journey.  The owner’s name is Kristen.  Random?!?!

I continued along my walk to find an Alchemy center.  That may not mean anything to anyone else, yet to me it means emotional freedom.  I started intense therapy towards Alchemy or transformation several  years ago.   Another moment caught between laughter and passing out.  There were several  other messages that are so necessary  to this moment in my life, that they are hard to ignore.  So not only does this location gather my childhood desires, it also brings my adulthood home to me as well.  I have about 10 more states to visit.  We shall see what they have to offer as far as my spot.

Namaste!

Kristin Springfield

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