Life doesn’t happen to you. It happens for you.

I experience a rainbow of emotions as I return from my daughter’s college graduation.  Where in the world did the time go?  I swear it was just last week that she held my hand everywhere we went and called me Momma loudly and proudly.  It is such a gift to watch this precious woman spread her wings as she creates her own life.  It is a life that is uniquely hers.  I could never have imagined where her life dreams would take her.  When she was 3 she desperately wanted to be a whale keeper and that stuck until she learned that her cooking was loved by everyone around the age of 14.  She bravely followed her dream in the world of culinary nutrition.  She has lived in more places during the past 3 years than I have lived in my 45 years on the planet, and she’s just getting started.  I see the sparkle in her eyes as she embraces her friends and loved one in the area of the country where she made her home.  I am in awe of this woman who stands before me.  She is human and learning to parent herself as many of us did or still are.  The transition to adulthood is exciting, exhausting and emotionally challenging.  As it is the time in life when you must make choices for yourself.

I entered into marriage and parenthood early in my adulthood.   My pattern continues to be filled with nurturing others, taking on tasks that somehow are easier for me because of my swift actions and lack of procrastination. Due to that I struggle with boundaries to protect the precious limited resource of my energy.  There needs to be a deposit the equals the withdrawals in emotional energy for all of us.  I have a pretty deep well of energy and neglect to pay attention to the signals of limited supply that my heart and body give me.  Burn out lead me to quit life for 7 months in 2015.  Here it is 2017 and I see some signals of my well of energy getting low.  Much like my daughter learning to parent herself in her 20’s, I am learning to truly nurture myself in my 40’s.  My role as a parent has evolved into a loving adviser.  She teaches me more about life than I could ever show her.  The perfect reflection of ourselves is often times found in our children.  Thank you my darling daughter, for reminding me of all the world has to offer with regards to love, friendship and healing.  I am forever grateful that you are in my life.

The past 3 years have been filled with hearts breaking open, adventures and awakening for my daughter and I as individuals and as a team.  There is no one else I would rather experience life with than this amazing young woman!

Namaste!

Kristin Springfield

Proud Momma
Forever learning

Release

I nestled into hot yoga this morning.  The class warmed my body and spirit.  It is customary to set an intention at the beginning of class.  Mine was to release the bullshit that no longer serves me.  In yoga-speak that translates to “release”.  During the final pose of rest we are asked to return to our intention.  During those moments of silence this popped up. I haven’t dabbled in poetry since 8th grade, and will quickly return to stories.  Yet thought it’s worth sharing as I confront discomfort head on.

Release

I forgive you
I forgive me
I release you
I am set free

Go on, my dear ones
I wish you well
For I am done
Living in this hell

I wanted you to choose me
Yet I lost myself in the point
There never was truly a we
The fear was thee, I’d disappoint

What was the purpose?
Perhaps you were a temporary teacher
To show me I’m worthless?
Your lesson was to make me take a breather!

Authentic love Is only what I seek
For conditions do not live there
My fears vanish before I peak
Joy and laughter is where I flair!

The threshold for abuse lowers every passing day
Poetry is clearly not my thing
No one really cares what roles we play
Spreading love is the absolute bling!

Oh, and Magical Giggles, too!

Xoxo

Namaste!
Kristin Springfield